ALTOPHOBIA (PHOBIA SERIES)

ALTOPHOBIA-(from the Greek word:ἄκρον,ákron, meaning "peak, summit, edge" andφόβος,phóbos, "fear") is an extreme orirrational fear or phobia ofheights.

I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.

---Frank Herbert

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On my highest point

You left me there

You thought you helped me,

Raised me, made me

You killed me

How do I get down

You keep telling me to jump,

To trust you,

You'll catch me

I've never been this high before

You tricked me,

Blinded me,

Made me think it was ok

Ok, I trust you

You love me

I'll jump

The air is so hard

You give me an encouraging smile

The ground is getting closer

Closer still

Then you smirk

A devious smile

I can't believe it!

You tricke-...

"Smack"

AGLIOPHOBIA (PHOBIA SERIES)

Agliophobia - (From the Greek word "algo" which means "pain" and the Greek word "phobos" which means "fear" or "dread") is the persistent,unwarranted,often irrational fear of pain.

Fear keeps us focused on the past or worried about the future. If we can acknowledge our fear, we can realize that right now we are okay. Right now, today, we are still alive, and our bodies are working marvellously. Our eyes can still see the beautiful sy. Our ears can still hear the voices of our loved ones.
--- Thich Nhat Hanh

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It was not the bruises that hurt

Not the bruise at all

It was the look in your eyes

When you walked away

My heart had never beat so loudly

I saw it coming, the beginning of my hurt

I knew I saw it

You calmed my fears awhile

Awhile..... long enough to stab through my heart

It was not the my body that hurt

Not my body at all

It was my very soul,

My mind,

My sanity

You saw it too

The pain I didn't feel

And when I smiled a ghost smile

It was you who hurt

Cause you didn't hurt me

And it hurt you

After all....

It was not me who hurt

Not me at all

It was you.....

AGATEOPHOBIA (PHOBIA SERIES)

AGATEOPHOBIA - (From the Greek word "agate", "insanity"), also known as MANIAPHOBIA,( From the Greek word " mania","madness") is the fear of insanity or becoming insane.

The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown.
H. P. Lovecraft

I fell beyond the ground

Into the abyss of your mind

Twisted and shrewd

An unholy ground

With mummified thoughts

And eerie whispers

Where I soon too will become whispers

In the ears of no one

Lost in terror of your mind

The floors a crimson red

With winds about in a room with no exits

I could feel my mind slip

Becoming one with yours

My darkest thoughts

Turning to figures in my presence

Scared to the point of no fear

And there you were

Sitting in a chair of thorns

Looking not at me but through me

To me

PHOBIA SERIES

I think you'd like this story: "PHOBIA SERIES" by Vanessa916 on Wattpad http://w.tt/1map2eS.

PHOBIA SERIES - Achluophobia- fear of darkness (Chapter 1)

You're not alone

The darkness haunts the halls

Waiting,creeping,ever patient

Let your guards down

An eerie smile or imagination

Delusion, denial

Waiting

Fear

Paralysed

The darkness consumes

The walls,the floor,the mind

Closer now

Run or stay

Run

Light ahead

Dim,dimmer

Gone

Hope,none

Run or stay

Stay

Done

I'm baaaaaaaaacckkkk!!!!

     Heeeeeeyyyyy guys!!!! It's been a while huh? Lol. Well,i'm sorry for staying away soo long,i promise I'll make it up to you.
    Anyway,in my time away I had some MAJOR writers block. There was this big wall between me and my creativity but that's over now.
     First of all,let me just say a big thank you to those who kept coming here even when I hadn't posted for more than a month,you guys keep me going. Thanks!!
     Secondly, I have great news. I'm working on a poetry series called "Fifty shades of phobia" lmao!!!!!! No,i'm just kidding. It's called "PHOBIA", where I will be writing poems on several phobias. It's not finished yet but I will be releasing some as time goes on. This poetry series,is my first series and will be posted on wattpad as well as here (details of wattpad will come later) .
     I really appreciate all the love and support you guys here give. I honestly can't say how much it means to me. Thank you all so much. Love Y'all and yes, I'm back for real. Muaaaahh.

TRICKED, NOW TREAT.

The tables turned

It's your turn now

Take your best shot

Titanium

Rigid atmosphere

The deafening silence

Bated breathe

I turn around

At the sound of the door

Creaking open by itself

"It's the wind",i say

I look at you

Only you're not alone

Not anymore

Who are they

When did they get in

I heard nothing

Your eyes shone a strange colour

Your laugh echoes

I stand up and back away

The door slams shut!

"You're mine now" you say

My heart beating in my ears

My body visibly shaking

Speechless

In the corner of my eye

I see the back door

I run out

You let me

Why did you let me?

Something 's not right

Before I realise

I hear the roar

All I see is blood and fur

[to be continued...]

FEAR

We build our prisons

The points our minds won't let us pass

Self degradation

Low self esteem

We are our obstacles

The mountain blocking our path

Mind over matter

Take the first step

Push through

Our limitations

Our biggest flaw

Fear

No fear no limits

How strong are you

Only as strong as your fear let's you

Our prison

Our limitation

Our fear

LAVA

The only way was down

It was a loss-loss game

These feelings all around

The faces with no names

The darkness that lurks

Ever creeping closer

Like waves on the docks

Clashing, edging nearer

The choice was down or dead

The pressure pressing further

The road was steep and red

The colours getting harsher

The heat is near now

His minions leaping closer

The way to escape,how

Too late and getting later

Power Belongs To You Acapella Cover

DEAD

The age is dark
Faith is dead
The cries of victims
Bloodshed everywhere
The loud explosions
No louder than my heart beat in my ears
The soldiers struggling,
Dying,sacrificing for us
Our leaders crumbling
Where are the heroes!
The ones we put our trust
Where is the hope!
Surely,you can't leave us now
What do we do?!
Who will help?!
No one!
They're all dead,
Hiding,
Slaving,
Dead.
They're all gone!
They left us!
Now we are.......dead.

NESSAKNOWS

UNWANTED (Guest Post)

I feel like a speck of black among the white Like the look in a deer's eye before it dies Like a rose in the desert I am all alone Even when the world is against me And I feel like I'm breaking I try to be strong and seem perfect for all to see How long till I break And spill my guts on the floor I am shrouded in darkness Reaching out in silence For someone to save me And even though I know There is no one for me I still have hope But even that lasts only so long So now I say I'm finally broken My secret exposed to the whole world And once again I'm all alone It's there and then,that I finally realise That I am UNWANTED. ANONYMOUS

BLOG UPDATE

Hey guys,so some people have been sending me their poems to put on my blog as a guest post. I just thought I'll notify you guys. So,if you see a title of a poem like this :'HELLO (Guest Post)', that means it wasn't written by me but a fellow colleagues or friend. Some of these guest poets prefer to be anonymous and some will like me to put a link to their blog. If I so I would put a link to their blog on the post and if anonymous there will be no link. Also,if there any requests, suggestions or Ideas leave them at the comment section. Thanks alot! Muah!!. Love you all NESSA KNOWS

PANDEMONIUM

The past's place misplaced

The future lacking in grace

The present looking faked

How much more can I take

Drifting in and out of shadows

No focus in the hallows

Darkness darker than dark

Here I lay, stark

Illusive mirage

Emotional barrage

Unbreakable chains

Unspeakable pains

Broken pieces

Heart beat ceases

Once again in darkness

Droned in madness



NESSAKNOWS 

BLOG UPDATE

  Hey guys. First of all thank you all so much for all the love and attention you guys have showed towards my blog. It means so much to me,like,i can't just tell you how much. God bless every single one of you.

  Secondly, I want to apologise for not posting in awhile. I've been super busy and hadn't had the time.

 On that note, I have decided to post only once a week. Any poet or writer knows how hard it is to come up with good quality post. As much as I want to put up a post at least twice a week,i can't. The motivation for my poems aren't always around and aren't easy to find and just like the past weeks,ive been super busy and didn't have the time to post. For that reason,ive decided to post only once a week and I'll try to make sure it's worth the wait.

 Thanks to everyone helping to push my blog forward.,i appreciate it. love Y'all.



NESSAKNOWS

UNREDEEMED

All she wanted was a little love

A little trust, a little care

All she fought for

Betrayal in the air

Eyes all dried up

Evil laugh echoes

Hopes all dropped

When love goes

Wishes all wished out

Requests yet unfulfilled

Pray now or pray not

Choices all concealed

No way,no end

When was there ever

No will,no stand

None together

EMO-TIONS

 

Speak the word and let me feel

All my emptiness be filled

Feelings long since sealed

Speak the word and let me feel

Break my heart,let me go

I can never be controlled

As steel I am cold

Break my heart,let me go

And at the end of the road

Take my life and let me be

In peace forever me goad

Let me rest peacefully

STRONGER

I won’t shed a tear
I won’t let it fall
This pain that I feel
Is nothing at all

You won’t hear my cries
You won’t hear me scream
Empty lies
Empty dreams

Heart of stone
Eyes of the tiger
Is what I own
Is what I desire

Nessa knows

SAVED

When the ache is all I know
When the pain is all I feel
When I’m feeling all alone
Give me something to believe

Raining in my bed
Clouds above my head
Screaming to the skies
Won’t you hear my cries

I can’t see much far ahead
Where does this journey lead?
I can’t wait to see the end
I don’t like being so scared

Then like the light at the end of the tunnel
I see you and you bring me hope
Standing there,looking like an angel
I know that I’m going home.

Nessa knows

ILLUSIONS

           
                       

                   

The beauty of light
Is the one in sight
The tears in my eyes
Are the ones inside
The cries of the night
Is the melody of fright

The joy that is stolen
Will never last
All that is golden
Will wither fast
Only the pure
Shall live true

        NessaKnows

INTRODUCTION

        So i'm not so good with introductions but here it is. My names are Chinonye Vanessa Ndu Agwu Anthony. Lol thats alot,i know. I'm an igbo indigen of Nigeria.
        The reason for opening this blog is to write. Writing is my passion,actually its more of my hobby than anything else. I've been secretly writing since i was in the 7th grade. Secretly because i was very introverted. My poems were and are very special to me, the difference is that right now i've decided to post my poems for public reading.
          This is not my first blog though. My first blog is a Wordpress blog.I'll put the link in later. I really hope you guys enjoy this blog. Thanks.

            NessaKnows